Day 6

~Approx 0830

So I am sitting here waiting at my local I.D card place to my flashy new brown military I.D. That will make it official. Not that its not official now, but it will really be in black and white for me, or should I say brown and white. I attempted to come here yesterday, but had my first public meltdown. I arrived about 8 min past closing (3 pm who knew??) And it was something I needed to get down asap. Hubby asked me to do this, and I felt like a failure I couldn't get it done right when he asked. I had both kids with me and Monkey was a bit cranky bc of her teeth, and Peanut was just not listening. She was running around when I told her to stay with me, we are on a military base gosh darn it!! But just as I suspected, she's acting out bc of hubby being gone. Its going to prove to be the toughest challenge yet. So there I am with all my required papers and have lugged in both girls and diaper bag, and the door is locked. I check the time and sure enough its 8 min past 3. Why me?? Why now?? I was upset about disappointing hubby, upset at the behavior of my oldest, upset at myself for not moving a little faster. It all hit me at once and I started crying in the lobby. Guess these emotions are getting away with me.

~Sometime hours later....

I am dog tired. We spent the day at the lake. I had a good time. It was nice to get out in the sun. Compared to the nasty cold wet New England weather we have been having, this was a blessing!!!! Unfortunately now I have a new worry... My tires! I just noticed while driving to the grocery store, a sound that sounded like a flat tire. So I pull over and check it out. Well it looks as if my front passenger tire is almost completely bald and needs air. And the front driver is slightly bald, but def not as bad as the passenger. Let's hope he gets paid soon and I can buy some new ones, if not this army wife will have some very bored little girls and empty cabinets.

I must confess... I am automobile challenged, BUT I wish I was a motor head!!! I love cars, to hear the engine roar under the hood, feel the power beneath my foot. Its just sooo nice!! But sadly I know pretty little about cars. I kinda know how to change the oil, I can pump gas, I can put air in my tires, thoroughly clean the inside. But I wish I could do more. Actually I have never changed a tire!! I have no clue how to!! So here it goes, I vow to learn how to change a tire before hubby comes back. Who's gonna hold me to it??

Day 5

Well here I am, awake, not dressed, my hair is a mess, I need a shower, I have mascara streaked down my face and I have no appetite. But the good news is the kids are fed and happy, Monkey went down for a nap ( 30 min so far can you believe it??!!) and Peanut has learned to pray to God for her daddy to be safe and come home soon. She does it like 10 times a day. It's so cute. Monkey started saying "dada" yesterday. I cant get over it. I am in love with it!! And she knows what dada is because shes looks at my phone (background is a pic of the 2 of us before her left) and says "dadadada". Breaks my little heart he wasn't here to hear it first. That's OK though, because I videoed it and sent it off to him. Hopefully he enjoyed it.

Not much on the agenda today. I need food in this house so I think I may venture out to the commissary to get some grub. I now have a mailing address for him, so also need to stop at the post office to get stamps, etc. Thanks to my lovely lady Sherry, yesterday was not so bad! She made us dinner and we took the kids out and let them release their energy. Tomorrow the girls and I will go to the lake with Sherry and my MIL and SILs. Its actually supposed to be nice weather, better then the 5 inches of rain we go on Tues!!! That rain was insane!! Yesterday we had hail and a tornado warning.... Ahh the joys of living in New England.

He called me a little while ago, and gave me a quick update of the dates for his pass, his address and such. It was nice to hear his voice. At the same time though, I don't want to get used to talking to him, because I know once he's in country, the phone calls will be few and far in between. I think the hardest time for me, is the night. After the kids are asleep and I am laying alone in my bed. That's when my mind wonders. I am hoping to start reading again, and maybe that will take my mind off things and I can fall asleep while reading. Keep my mind on a leash if I can. Well I suppose I must get my day going... it is almost noon!

I must confess: I love coupons! (Hubby on the other hand... does not!) Some people may or may not know this. I love to find a good deal to pay nothing or next to nothing for things. Since we have a very limited income coming in for the time being, I need to really stretch a buck. I learned everything from online blogs and websites. I will do a post in the upcoming days to teach you some of what I know. I love helping others save money too!!